Charles Schulz and Harriet Glickman

Charles Schulz and Harriet Glickman

Eleven days after they killed Dr. King, a teacher sat down to force a Black child into America’s most famous comic strip. Harriet Glickman wrote Charles Schulz in 1968 and asked him to put a Black kid in Peanuts, where in eighteen years not one had ever appeared.

He almost said no, afraid that a white man drawing a Black child would look like pity. A hundred million readers, eighteen years, and the whole thing turned on one letter.

Eleven days after Dr. King was killed in Memphis, a schoolteacher in California sat down at her typewriter and wrote a letter to a cartoonist. She did not expect him to write back.

Her name was Harriet Glickman. She was forty-one, a mother of three living in the San Fernando Valley, and that spring she felt as powerless as everyone around her.

The country was coming apart. Cities were burning, the television was wall to wall with funerals, and a teacher in suburban Los Angeles kept asking herself what one ordinary person could possibly do.

She was not an activist.

She was a mother with a typewriter and a feeling she could not shake.

The man she wrote to was Charles Schulz. His comic strip, Peanuts, ran in around a thousand newspapers and reached close to a hundred million readers every week.

Charlie Brown, Lucy, Linus, Snoopy.

Eighteen years of that strip, going back to 1950, and not one of those children was Black.

Glickman had spent her life around children. As a teacher, she had watched something up close that stayed with her.

Black children and white children never saw themselves sitting side by side, not in school in the funny pages, not anywhere a child went looking for his own face.

So she said it plainly on the page. She wrote that since Dr. King’s death she had been asking what she could do about the “vast sea of misunderstanding, hate, fear and violence” that had swallowed the country.

She had actually sent the same idea to several cartoonists. Schulz was the one who wrote back.

That was the first surprise.

His reply was honest in a way that probably stung. He told her he had thought about putting a Black child in the strip, and that the idea frightened him.

Not because of his readers.

He was afraid of getting it wrong.

He worried it would come off like a white man patting Black families on the head, talking down to them. “I don’t know what the solution is,” he wrote, and left it right there.

A lot of people would have folded at that. A polite no from a famous man is an easy place to stop.

But Glickman wrote again, and Schulz answered again, and this time he sounded even more certain it was a mistake. He was sure that whatever he drew would come off as a white man being clumsy about something this raw.

Still she did not let it drop.

She wrote back and asked his permission to do one small thing.

She had no interest in speaking for Black people. So she asked if she could show his letter to some Black friends of hers, parents, and let them answer him in their own words.

Schulz said yes.

One of those friends was a man named Kenneth Kelly. He was a Black father of two young boys, and he was an engineer.

Not just any engineer.

Kelly worked on the Surveyor program, the unmanned American craft that was setting down on the surface of the moon.

Sit with that picture for a second. A Black man helping land a spacecraft on the moon took the time to write a cartoonist about whether a Black child could sit in a comic strip.

Kelly was patient with him. He told Schulz that no Black parent he knew would call the gesture condescending, and that even if a few did, it would be “a small price to pay” for what it would give their children.

What it would give them was not complicated. It was the simple sight of themselves, somewhere inside the ordinary American picture they were shut out of every single day.

Kelly even told him how to do it. Do not make the boy a hero, he suggested, and do not turn him into a lesson.

Just a regular kid, one of the gang, nothing special, simply there.

Years later, Kelly would spend himself fighting housing discrimination in his city. That summer, he changed a comic strip instead.

Another friend and parent, Monica Gunning, wrote to Schulz as well. The letters kept landing on his desk in Northern California, polite and unhurried and impossible to wave off.

All of this was happening while the year kept getting worse. In June, Robert Kennedy was killed in Los Angeles, Glickman’s own city, a few weeks after Kelly mailed his letter.

The country was taking blow after blow.

And in the middle of it, that quiet argument about a comic strip kept moving forward, one letter at a time.

Then, one day that summer, Schulz sent Glickman a short note. He told her to check her newspaper the week of July twenty-ninth, because he had drawn something he thought would please her.

On July 31, 1968, Charlie Brown is standing on a beach, and he has lost his ball in the water. A boy he has never met before wades in and carries it back to him.

The boy’s name is Franklin. The two of them get to talking and build a sandcastle together, two children on a beach on a summer afternoon.

No speech. No halo.

No lecture about brotherhood, just a Black child being kind to Charlie Brown, printed in a thousand papers from coast to coast.

The strip would later show that Franklin’s father was a soldier serving in Vietnam. He was never written as a symbol.

He was somebody’s son.

When Franklin appeared, mail poured into Schulz’s office from all over the country. Most of it said the same simple thing, which was thank you.

It should have ended there, small and sweet. It did not.

When Schulz later drew Franklin in school, he sat him at a desk right in front of Peppermint Patty. A Black child and a white child, learning in the same room.

For one Southern newspaper editor, that was the line. He wrote to Schulz to say he did not mind a Black character, but please do not show the children in school together.

The man could accept Franklin existing in the strip.

He could not accept that child sharing a desk with a white girl.

This was 1968. Black children were walking into newly integrated schools behind federal marshals, and a grown man was objecting to a cartoon doing the very same thing.

Schulz had a decision to make, and he made it without any noise. Years later, asked what he had done about that complaint over the classroom, he gave a short answer.

It was five words. “I didn’t even answer him.”

He just kept drawing the two of them at the same desk.

Far off in Philadelphia, a six-year-old Black boy watched Franklin appear with no idea of the fight behind him. His name was Robb Armstrong.

That year had already taken something from him. His older brother had died thirty days before Franklin first turned up on that beach.

Thirty days.

A boy loses his brother, and a month later a new face shows up in the comics page he reads on the living room floor.

So here was a child who already knew the shape of a hole in a family. And then, right inside that grief, a Black kid walked into his favorite comic strip.

Robb looked at Franklin and thought one thing. “That’s like me.”

He had already told his mother, at three years old, that he was going to be a cartoonist.

Now he had proof there was room for him.

A Black boy could belong on the funny pages, because one already did.

That child grew up to become exactly what he had promised. Robb Armstrong created JumpStart, one of the most widely syndicated Black comic strips in the country.

And here is where the story closes a circle no one could have planned. Franklin, through all those decades, never had a last name.

In the 1990s, Charles Schulz picked up the phone and called Robb Armstrong. A special was in the works, every character needed a full name, and Schulz had just realized Franklin did not have one.

So he asked the grown man, the one who had once been that grieving six-year-old, whether he could borrow his name. Robb said yes right away.

That is why the first Black character in Peanuts is named Franklin Armstrong.

Armstrong called it the highest respect a person could be shown.

About the man who reached a lonely kid through a comic strip, he said it simply, “He inspired a kid.”

Harriet Glickman lived to be ninety-three. She died in March of 2020, in the same Sherman Oaks house where she had typed that letter more than fifty years earlier.

The letter outlived her. It rests now in the Charles M. Schulz Museum, the real page, her real words, dated eleven days after Dr. King was killed.

You can stand in front of it today, behind glass, and read the date typed across the top. April 15, 1968, mailed by a woman who was certain no one was listening.

Professors Scolyer, Allen, McLaws and Johnston

Professors Scolyer, Allen, McLaws and Johnston

A tale of four Australians – what do Professors Scolyer, Allen, McLaws and Johnston have in common?

All have Dr. before their names and AO after.

All have died from turbo cancer which was most likely caused by the covid vaccine that they promoted.

All didn’t need the vaccine but chose to have it to advance their careers.

All knew that mandates are the tools of bullies, criminals and dictators.

All lived by the system, advanced by the system and eventually killed by the system.

All will be remembered for not speaking up when they could have helped stopped the madness

Vadim Zeland

Vadim Zeland

(Tom: This aligns with what I understand, that when we descend from making things happen by lightly deciding they will happen down to using energy to make them happen we are less likely to obtain the desired result.)

Somewhere in Russia, there is a man who does not want to be found.

Not because he is hiding from trouble. Not because he is ashamed of what he has written. But because he genuinely believes that who he is has nothing to do with whether his ideas are true — and that making himself the story would only get in the way.

When readers ask him “Who are you, Vadim Zeland?” he gives the same answer every time: “I’m no one special.” Wemoral

No photographs. No interviews. No stage appearances. No social media presence. Just books — released quietly into the world — and then silence.

He has said: “My biography cannot and should not be of any interest. To transmit this knowledge without personal distortions, I really ought to be nobody. Just an empty vessel.” Wemoral

This is either profound humility or masterful mystique. Possibly both.

What is known about him is this: before the collapse of the Soviet Union, he did research in quantum physics. Afterward, he worked in computer technology. Then, in the early 2000s, he began writing. Wemoral

The books came out in Russia starting around 2004. They spread first through word of mouth — friend telling friend, stranger telling stranger on early internet forums. No advertising. No celebrity endorsements. No famous face attached.

Just readers saying, quietly, to anyone who would listen: “Something about this is different. Try it.”

The series is called Reality Transurfing. And the central idea — stripped of its more contested theoretical packaging — goes like this:

Most people approach what they want in life the wrong way. They strain toward it. They obsess. They assign it enormous importance. They pour so much desperate energy into wanting something that the wanting itself becomes the obstacle. Like gripping water in a clenched fist: the harder you squeeze, the faster it escapes.

Zeland’s proposal is a fundamental shift in approach.

Stop making your goals so desperately important. Choose what you want clearly, calmly, with quiet confidence — as if you are selecting something from a menu rather than clawing toward it. Align your inner state with the version of yourself who already has the thing you’re reaching for. Stop straining. Start moving.

He frames this through the language of quantum physics and parallel possibilities — describing reality as a vast field of branching variants, and your life as something you navigate by shifting your inner frequency rather than forcing external outcomes.

Here is where honest reporting matters: physicists and scientists have consistently pointed out that Zeland’s use of quantum physics terminology does not accurately represent how quantum mechanics actually works. Quantum effects operate at subatomic scales — they do not function the way self-help writers often describe them. This is a legitimate and important criticism that serious readers of Transurfing should know. All That’s Interesting

Zeland himself, to his credit, has acknowledged this. He says the theoretical model is a framework — a way of thinking — not a scientific claim. He has stated clearly: “The use of the techniques is not dependent on the acceptance of his theoretical model.” You don’t have to believe the physics framing. You just have to try the practices. ABC News

And the practices — stripped of the cosmological scaffolding — are recognizable.

Reduce the anxious importance you attach to outcomes. Listen to what you actually want rather than what you think you should want. Stop being swept along by other people’s ideas of success. Move toward your goals from a place of calm intention rather than desperate striving.

These ideas appear in Buddhist philosophy. In Stoicism. In modern cognitive behavioral therapy. In various contemplative traditions going back centuries. Zeland acknowledges the overlaps openly and without defensiveness.

What he brought to them was a specific, practical, systematic framework — written in plain language by someone who described himself as an ordinary person who had, by his own admission, spent most of his life doing everything wrong.

“All my life I had practiced anti-Transurfing,” he once said. “I had done everything just the wrong way. A clever man learns from other people’s mistakes, but a fool always learns from his own ones. In this sense I had been a headstrong fool.” NBC News

There is something disarming about that. No guru claiming enlightenment. No teacher presenting himself as someone who arrived. Just a man who made a mess of his life, figured some things out, and wrote them down.

The books spread. Slowly at first, then faster. Online communities formed — in Russian, then in English, then in dozens of languages — where ordinary people shared their experiences with the practices. The testimonials that fill these communities are anecdotal and unverified. They cannot be taken as scientific evidence.

But they keep coming. Year after year, in community after community, the same kinds of reports appear: a goal pursued desperately for years suddenly moved forward when the desperate pursuit stopped. A relationship that had been stuck shifted when the straining stopped. Opportunities arrived when the grasping relaxed.

Whether these outcomes have anything to do with Zeland’s framework, or whether they reflect the well-documented psychological effects of reducing anxiety and obsessive thinking — effects that mainstream psychology also supports — is genuinely impossible to know from testimonials alone.

The man himself does not claim to know the answer. He says only: try it. Watch what happens.

He remains hidden. No empire. No disciples gathered around a guru. No course selling for thousands. Just the books, just the ideas, just the quiet persistence of millions of ordinary readers who found something useful and passed it on.

Twenty years after the first book appeared in Russia, the conversation continues — in forums and reading groups and comment threads across dozens of languages — between people who have never met and likely never will, connected only by a set of ideas released into the world by a man who insists he is nobody.

Maybe the framework describes something true about reality. Maybe it found a modern language for ancient wisdom. Maybe the practices work for entirely different reasons than the author describes. Maybe the answer is some mixture of all three.

What is true is this: the ideas ask something genuinely difficult of the people who try them. Not to want less. Not to care less. But to hold what they want lightly — with intention rather than desperation, with direction rather than strain.

In a world that constantly tells you to want harder, push harder, force harder — that particular message is quiet and strange and surprisingly hard to find.

Which may be exactly why, twenty years later, people are still passing it along.

“Want what you want. Want it lightly. See what slides toward you.”

he Widows’ Street – a film by Klaus Scheidsteger

By Stop Smart Meters Australia on June 9, 2026

Dr Monika Kraut

This 30-minute documentary dramatically brings to life the significance of a study and resulting scientific paper – dubbed the ATHEM-3 project – which provides clear evidence that living near mobile phone towers causes cell damage.

The film shows how the impact of Dr Monika Kraut’s own personal story, told at an important telecommunications congress in 2019 centred around the debate on the introduction of 5G technology, triggered a ground-breaking study. The resulting research project brought together an inter-disciplinary team of leading international experts.

A meticulous investigation of two comparable groups of people in Germany, one of which was exposed to relatively low radiofrequency electromagnetic fields (RF-EMF) and one of which was exposed to relatively high RF-EMF from nearby mobile phone base stations, was instigated. Chromosomal aberrations were significantly increased for the residents with higher exposure to RF-EMF.

The project’s findings provided an explanation as to why, in the years following the erection of a telecommunications tower beside Dr Kraut’s quiet street, so many people in her neighbourhood had epileptic seizures. Why so many of them had cancer.

As explained by Dr Wilhelm Mosgoeller in the documentary, the damage we see is exactly the same as for ionising radiation. In biology it makes no sense at all to differentiate between ionising and non-ionising radiation. The cell doesn’t know if it is being damaged by non-ionising or ionising radiation! All types of radiation can transform healthy cells into cancer cells or damage genetic material.

The Widows’ Street premiered on 30 April 2026 in Switzerland. It deserves to be seen widely. SSMA hopes that those in Australia who are responsible for protecting the population from EMF damage – and who have continued to abrogate their responsibilities – take special note.

You can watch the English version of The Widows’ Street via the following link:
https://odysee.com/$/embed/@timetowakeup:69/Die-Witwenstra%C3%9Fe-english-version-HD_2-:7

The 2024 paper, Evaluation of oxidative stress and genetic instability among residents near mobile phone base stations in Germany, which was an outcome of the project, can be accessed at: https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0147651324005621?via%3Dihub

The Ebola Scare – The Brownstone Institute

We barely finished the Hantavirus scare before Ebola arrived on the scene, along with fears that it will spread far and wide.

It’s a real virus and a wicked killer, to be sure. There is also zero chance that it can mutate into a pandemic. Why? It has a higher case fatality rate, one that actually limits its spread. A spreadable virus cannot kill its host. Only unsuccessful viruses do that.

That’s how the logic of these pathogens operates. There is a tradeoff between severity and prevalence. Incubation rates can adjust that dynamic somewhat but Ebola shows fast symptoms, which is why it is usually contained. That also makes contact tracing easier.

These days every infection that gets media attention generates public fear of both the medical and political response. What if they attempt another lockdown-until-vaccinate plot? We might swear not to comply but what if we are debanked, censored, and shamed?

In short, how powerful are the combined forces of media, public health officials, and governments? Is there anything we can do to stop them?

For all the world, it feels these days like someone is up to something. The World Health Organization never misses a chance to spread fear. The role of Brownstone Institute is to do the opposite: spread calm through logic, experience, and the actual science instead of the counterfeit form.

From a Brownstone Newsletter

It was only a few months ago that White House moles were telling Robert F. Kennedy, Jr. to shut up about vaccines. It’s bad politics to have doubts, they said, citing polls.

We had our suspicions and conducted our own poll. It demonstrated supermajorities opposed to vaccine mandates and for culling the childhood schedule. Not only that: public opinion is extremely intense on this subject. After the Covid mandates, people aren’t having it anymore.

Months went by and the plotters lost the plot. Their fake polls that diverted a national agenda – one shared by Trump, RFK, and many appointees – were exposed. Sure enough, last Friday, the Trump administration attempted a damage reversal with a new Executive Order.

This EO calls for trimming the schedule and pushing informed choice over coercion. Did this make national news? Not at all. It’s not been published in any major newspaper other than Epoch Times. You know why: these legacy media sources are backed by pharmaceutical advertising dollars.

The game is obvious to us all now. What’s fascinating is to watch – and participate in – the collapse of a paradigm. They pushed too hard and the consensus completely cracked. Now the only goal of industry is to hang on as long as possible and hope that we all forget.

But there will be no forgetting. No matter how many phony baloney disease panics they throw at us, we’ll never comply. The lies have become unbearably obvious.

The Trump administration is now working hard to recapture lost momentum, with full knowledge that the issue is not going away.

Alpha Lipoic Acid and Acetyl L-Carnitine

Alpha Lipoic Acid and Acetyl L-Carnitine

(Tom: Just one reason I have both in my daily routine and my DNA/Heart/Mitochondria Blend.)

Over 6 million Americans have Alzheimer’s disease and 20 million suffer from peripheral neuropathy, both conditions sharing brain mitochondrial dysfunction and nerve cellular energy failure as primary mechanisms that alpha lipoic acid and acetyl L-carnitine address through the most clinically validated natural neuroprotective combination in aging research. Alpha lipoic acid and acetyl L-carnitine together represent the specific nutritional combination that Dr. Bruce Ames’ landmark research identified as reversing brain mitochondrial decay in aging subjects, making it one of the few natural compounds with human clinical evidence for genuine cognitive aging reversal. Most Americans take separate brain supplements without discovering the specific combination that together addresses both mitochondrial oxidative damage and neural fatty acid transport in the comprehensive manner that aging brain restoration requires.

Alpha lipoic acid serves as both a mitochondrial cofactor for pyruvate dehydrogenase and a universal antioxidant that recycles vitamins C and E, glutathione, and CoQ10 simultaneously. Research from the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences confirmed ALA with acetyl L-carnitine reverses brain mitochondrial decay by 44% and improves cognitive function measurably in aging subjects through combined antioxidant and metabolic mechanisms naturally.

Study finds acetyl L-carnitine transports long-chain fatty acids into mitochondria for ATP production while simultaneously increasing acetylcholine synthesis through its acetyl group donation to choline acetyltransferase. Evidence suggests combining ALA’s antioxidant protection with ALCAR’s mitochondrial fuel provision and acetylcholine enhancement creates comprehensive brain aging reversal naturally.

Research confirmed alpha lipoic acid and acetyl L-carnitine together power brain mitochondria 44%, reverse cognitive aging, and restore nerve function naturally.

Educational Purpose Only. Consult your doctor before changing your health routine.

Death of the Middle Class: Billionaire vs Entrepreneur DEBATE – Daniel Priestley v Nick Hanauer

Nick and Dan Interviewed Why is the economy collapsing? Nick Hanauer and Daniel Priestley debate the wealth divide, why wages should be double what they are, what AI is doing to your job, and whether capitalism can still fix itself!

Nick Hanauer is a venture capitalist and serial entrepreneur, the first non-family investor in Amazon, and host of the Pitchfork Economics podcast. Daniel Priestley is an award-winning entrepreneur, business coach and best-selling author of 7 books, including ’Lifestyle Business Playbook’.

Watch the video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLBsHXNEwAU

Susan Kuhnhausen

Susan Kuhnhausen

One hour before a hitman attacked her with a claw hammer, Susan Kuhnhausen sat in a hair salon reading a poem in Oprah magazine.

“I will not die an unlived life,” it began. “I will not live in fear.”

She had no idea how prophetic those words would become.

On the evening of September 6, 2006, the 51-year-old emergency room nurse finished her shift at Providence Portland Medical Center and stopped at Perfect Look salon on East Burnside Street. She mentioned to her stylist that she was going through a tough divorce—her husband Mike had finally moved out after nearly 18 years of marriage.

An hour later, Susan drove home to her blue Cape Cod in southeast Portland’s Montavilla neighborhood. In the mudroom, she found a note from Mike by the microwave.

“Sue, haven’t been sleeping. Had to get away—Went to the beach.”

She walked toward her bedroom. It was strangely dark. Had she forgotten to open the curtains that morning?

Then a man stepped out from behind the door.

He was 59 years old, with long hair tucked into a tan baseball cap pulled low over his eyes. He wore yellow rubber gloves. In his hands was a red and black claw hammer.

He swung.

The first blow caught Susan on the left temple. For most people, the sight of an intruder with a weapon would have meant one thing: run.

But Susan wasn’t most people.

For nearly 30 years, she had worked in the emergency room. She had helped crack open patients’ chests to perform heart massages. She had disarmed violent, injured men. She had administered IVs to people thrashing from drug withdrawal. And every nurse at Providence trained regularly in self-defense—learning how to slip out of headlocks, how to take someone down, how to survive.

As the man came at her, Susan did something counterintuitive. Instead of retreating, she rushed toward him. She knew from training that a hammer swing has less force at close range. She slammed her body against his, pushing him against the wall.

He spoke the only words she would hear him say that night.

“You’re strong.”

In that moment, Susan knew. This was no burglar. He hadn’t asked where her money was. He hadn’t asked about a safe. He was there to kill her.

“It became quickly clear that his intent was murder,” she later said. “And I fought.”

Susan tackled him. She wrestled the hammer away. She hit him in the head—three times, maybe four—with the claw end. Her father had been a carpenter. He always told her a hammer could be used for self-defense. The claw end worked best.

But the man grabbed the hammer back. Susan reached for his throat and squeezed. His face turned red, then purple, then a darker purple with a blue tinge.

“WHO SENT YOU HERE?” she screamed.

He said nothing.

She let go, thinking he was done. She tried to run. But as she fled into the hallway, he caught her from behind. He spun her around and punched her in the face, splitting her lip. She fell to the floor.

He stood over her with the hammer raised.

“I looked at the floor,” Susan remembered, “and I thought, I’m going to die today.”

She doesn’t know how she did what came next. Somehow, she pulled him down to the floor with her. She bit him—on the arm, on the thigh—hoping that if he killed her, at least her teeth marks would link him to her death.

Then she threw her leg over his body, climbed on top of him, and hooked her left arm around his neck.

“TELL ME WHO SENT YOU HERE AND I WILL CALL YOU A FUCKING AMBULANCE!” she yelled in his face.

He growled at her.

Susan leaned forward and squeezed harder. His face changed color again. He tried to flip her, but her years of training held. She pressed down until he stopped moving.

The fight had lasted approximately 15 minutes.

Susan grabbed the hammer and ran to her neighbor’s house. The neighbor called 911.

“We have an intruder in the house next door. The intruder was in the bedroom with a hammer. The woman who lives there thinks she may have strangled him. He was down when she left.”

“Does she need an ambulance?”

“No, she’s a nurse. She says call an ambulance for the guy. He may be dead.”

Police arrived to find the intruder dead in the hallway. His name was Edward Dalton Haffey. He had a long criminal record—including a 1994 conviction for arranging the murder of his ex-girlfriend, for which he served nine years in prison.

At first, investigators thought Haffey was a burglar who had picked the wrong house. But Susan knew better. She had suspected from the moment he said “You’re strong” that someone had sent him.

In Haffey’s backpack, police found a day planner. On the week of September 4, two days before the attack, someone had written: “Call Mike. Get letter.”

Inside a folder was a phone number. It belonged to Mike Kuhnhausen.

Further investigation revealed that Mike had hired Haffey—who once worked as a custodian at an adult video store Mike managed—for $50,000 to kill Susan. Mike had wanted her dead so he could inherit their $300,000 house. He knew she had removed him from her life insurance policy, but he figured the house was still worth the gamble.

On the day of the attack, Mike had driven to the Oregon coast and checked into the Lincoln City Inn, establishing an alibi. The day after learning Susan had survived, he bought a .357 Magnum revolver at a pawn shop. Then he wrote a suicide note: “All I ever wanted was to be loved and every time I had it—I fucked it up.”

Police arrested him on September 13. He denied everything at first.

But the evidence was overwhelming. Haffey wasn’t the first person Mike had approached about killing Susan. He had solicited three others before finding a man desperate enough to say yes.

In August 2007, Mike pleaded guilty to soliciting aggravated murder. At his sentencing hearing, Susan was allowed to address him directly. She held up photographs of her own bloodied face.

“You told police that you found out I was okay,” she said. “Do I look okay?”

Then she delivered a message she had prepared.

“You were willing for me to share your small, miserable life until death we did part—the sooner the better, as it turned out.”

She paused.

I am damaged by what you have done to me. I am damaged. But I am not destroyed.”

Mike was sentenced to 10 years in prison.

Susan sued him for $1 million in civil court—not because she needed the money, but because she wanted to make sure he couldn’t afford to hire another hitman when he got out. The jury awarded her $1,053,783.

She never had to worry. In June 2014, three months before his scheduled release, Mike Kuhnhausen died of cancer in prison.

Susan had already changed her name to Susan Walters. She moved to a new house. She practiced at the shooting range. She lived with what she called “two life sentences”—the trauma of knowing her husband had tried to have her killed, and the weight of having taken another man’s life.

“I don’t know that you ever get over having killed another human being,” she said. “I’ve always said I don’t take any pride in what I did. But I also feel no shame.”

Her boss at the hospital offered her a different way to see it.

“They are not calling you a hero because you killed a man,” she told Susan. “They are calling you a hero because they want to believe that, given the same circumstances, they could do what you did.”

Today, Susan Walters is a victim advocate in Portland. She helped create Case Companion, a free website that allows crime victims to track their offenders’ court dates, sentencing, and release information. She has worked with WomenStrength and GirlStrength programs, teaching others what she learned the hard way.

“If you can’t run and you can’t hide,” she says, “you have to fight.”

“I didn’t choose my attacker’s death for him. I chose my life.